in times of angst
yknow what gets me down? i used to think it was just my mood, swaying and froing, my stupid lame, everchanging mood. ithink its when people ignore me or im feeling lonely. i guess that way, i have time to think. about life. about taut relationships. about yeh, life. keeping up with it. why would you want to?
and. i guess, i feel lonely. and. like. sure, i've accepted that. but. hey, it still hurts.
and. like. how, everyone is so high, way too high, after something serious. and thoughtprovoking. like. BE CALM AND THOUGHTFUL for once. idno.
my depressing/pissy/down/annoyed moods. i dont like them.
and everyone has all their tightly bonded friendships, laughing happily around you. hahaha. and. 'here i am. this is me. there's nowhere else on earth i'd rather be' but there sure is. i dont think i would mind, living on a desert island for the rest of my life, watching the beautiful nature. i love sunsets. It cuts me, when people, have grown so senseless to how beautiful nature is, or even when its so beautiful, people are hurting, and arguing and raeging. i hate humankind.
summed up
i realized my life is really great, i just have a shit attitude.
All those people in Africa, they have so little, yet they're so.. happy...
they know how to live with what they have and be grateful from it.
They know how to live with the moment
we have so much to learn from them
somedays, i just feel so alone. i know i am so alone. you really cant compare yourself to anyone. and it makes me feel so ..small. and unloved
everyone thinks their own problems are so big, but when you expand your view, it is really so trivial
But i guess, what is life without all the trivia?
somedays, i dont mind being alone. just a restless wanderer on this earth. i think i've accepted that im just different.
maybe when you read this, you'll think, what an arrogant fool, she thinks she's so different and special.
but i dont really care anymore. noone can really understand anyone else. the world is based on assumptions.
i dont mind that. what i mind is when poeple start to act BECAUSE of their assumptions
like they say, you shouldnt judge poeple
we are all sinners, and even though you think you arent as bad as someone else, we're all probably just as bad in somehting else.
when i knew my dad had been doing other stuff, i immediately felt he was less authoritative coz he was wrong too. he had been wrong.
and then i thought about my life. who are we to bitch and gossip about all those other people in the world?
i, for one, aint perfect. who is? and people alwasy think theyre superior, so superior,.
i think the world should get a hold on itself.
have you noticed all adjectives are based on comparisons or opinions?